This is from a note I posted recently on Facebook. I hope you enjoy it.
IF ONLY HEAVEN HAD FACEBOOK...
There would be so much to say and so many hugs to give and so many stories to share. If Heaven had a facebook I'd write every day to my loved one that are there. To my daddy, whom I hardly got along with because we were both so stubborn and hard headed. Lol... I always called you "daddy" even up til the day you passed away. I never grew out of that. Even though we were both hard headed and we never said those three words. I did love you and still do and always will. So many things happened growing up that has been forgiven and I hope you forgive me for being stubborn as well. I miss you a lot.
Love always,
Your son :)
There are so many that I would write to. But the main one I would write to is my baby girl, McKenzie Erin Kennedy. Her sun rose on March 20th, 2000 and her sun set on January 30, 2009. McKenzie, if only you could see this from Heaven. These last 36 months have been the loneliest I've ever been. I never got to be the daddy I wanted to be to you. The daddy that could go play outside like a daddy should and play games like your most favorite game in the world... "TAG, YOU'RE IT." Lol. If only you could be here now. We'd play tag and skip rocks across the water and do anything your heart desired. I was asked a few weeks ago the hardest question I've ever been asked. If I could have you back from heaven would I have you back? If I wanted to be selfish I would say yes I would, but I can't be selfish like that. You are in the most beautiful place beyond our imagination. I would not wish you back, even though I would love to spend one more minute with you which would turn into one more hour then one more day and so on and I wouldn't want you to leave again. So, no I wouldn't wish that. I miss your smile and those big bright blue eyes. I see your eyes every time I look into the mirror. I'm thankful for those eight years, ten months and ten days you were here with us. Heaven needed a champion and you were definitely my little champion. You're my hero. Some days I just feel like giving up on this journey I'm on in getting healthy. But I know I can't give up. I won't let you down or let myself down. I know the prize at the end of my journey will be great, but really there's no end. The prize is that my journey begins again when I get to my goal weight and I continue to be healthy and pay it forward to others and help them save their lives. Thank you baby girl for being the best little Angel Girl a daddy could ever have. I love you and I miss you. Until I see you again, just know I love you so much, sweetheart.
Love Always and Forever and two days,
Daddy <3
As I said, there's so many people I'd write to. I just wanna say to everyone that reads this, I'm thankful for each one of you. Friends are like family that we get to choose. You guys are awesome and I'm thankful to you all. Thank you for putting up with me. God Bless :-)
Love,
Your Brother in Christ,
earl
Must you make me cry so often Earl? I know what you mean though. There are so many things that I want to say to so many people in Heaven. I'm sure you could have just kept going and going with this post. I am very proud of you and feel incredibly blessed to have found you andcall you a friend and brother in Christ. You give me inspiration and strength every day and hopefully I give you a glimmer of the same. Love you buddy.
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